Sunday, April 23, 2017

2016 Family Trip Vlog (part 1)

Hi. :)
First of all, I just wanted to say a HUGE thank you to everyone out there who showed love and support following my last post. Our family was blown away, and felt every single one of your prayers. You were all God's instruments in starting the healing process, so once again... THANK YOU!

The other day, I finally got to putting together the first vlog in our 2016 family trip series. 
I know, it took me a while! Normally I would have had time during school hours, in between grading and helping with homework, but this year I was teaching a 3rd grader, which requires a lot more attention than high school students! So now that our school year is finished... it is time to vlog. :)
Anyway, here it is. Part 1!

Monday, April 17, 2017

If you think I'm controlled... read this

I'm not the ranting type. I don't like to come on social media and rave about things that are upsetting me just to get it off my chest.

But today, I feel like I need to make a statement, so that people can stop misunderstanding, and know where I stand.
So, as the title suggests, if you are of the mindset that I am a victim that is trapped in a family of fourteen, emotionally held in my home against my will... then read on. If not, maybe you should skip this post, because what I am about to write may get a little, shall we say "loud".

This is not an emotionally charged post. I may not even hit the publish button, because I have debated with myself for days on whether or not this is the right thing to do. But the more days that went by, the more certain I became that there are people in my life that need to hear this. Instead of confronting one by one, I'm just going to write it, let it out, in one big generalized letter, because I do understand that there may be a wide variety of people that hold me in this regard.

Our family has gone through a rough time these past couple of weeks. By rough, I mean this is as low as it has ever gotten for us. I'm not going to go into any specifics, but I will say that rumours have been milling and swelling by people that we trusted, causing great damage to the leader of our home, and therefore causing a lot of damage to us all.

I have had to deal a lot with anger, because I have seen someone that I love being stabbed in the back over, and over again. I have seen hurt like never before, and I have seen the best of intentions being mistook for the worst, for no cause other than prejudice.

Some may think that attacking Dad wouldn't affect the rest of us, because we are, in some views, the "victims". But we are not. Every stab that has been directed on him has been felt by all of us.

Some people have it in their heads that I don't have an opinion.
I don't have a choice.
I don't have a voice.
Well, hear me roar. My voice is about to be heard.

I am twenty five years old, living in my parent's home, under my Dad's leadership.
This is not normal, I will acknowledge that.
But, just because it is not normal, doesn't mean it is not what I want.

This is a life that I have chosen. I am not trapped here, I love it here.
Within the protection of my family, I am able to live out my dreams in ways that the judgemental couldn't even imagine.
Some say "She isn't allowed to get a job", what the heck do you know? Maybe I do have a job that you don't know about, maybe I don't want a job. The point is STOP JUDGING.
Stop pointing fingers, stop spreading lies, just stop.
If you have a concern, talk to me or my family about it. I am not trapped, nor brain washed, so I will tell you the truth.

Through this hardship, we have come to see true colours. We have noticed the people that don't necessarily agree with us, but they respect us for who we are. For them, we are extremely grateful.
That is all we ask for really.
You won't see us doing hurtful things, and spreading rumours for the way that other people choose to live their lives, all we ask is for the same courtesy to be shown to us.

I will close out by saying this.
My family is a team. These past couple of weeks we have been up all hours of the night talking through what has happened and how we are going to deal with it.
Through this hardship we have drawn closer then we ever have before.
We are unstoppable, we will not be broken, TOGETHER we are strong.