Wednesday, February 11, 2015

This Girl

To be able to know this girl is a privilege.
To be able to love this girl is a blessing.
To be able to call this girl my best friend is a treasure.

Words could not express how amazing and precious this girl is.

She is one of the strongest women that I have ever met. 
Her faith, unshakable.
Her heart is big, and I love to watch her as she shares her love, 
and the love of Christ to all those around her.

We do everything together, share everything with each other 

(I don't know what I would do without my KerBear!).
I am BEYOND blessed to be able to call her my little sister.

Today is her birthday!!
Happy, happy.... HAPPY birthday Kerker!!!
I love you!!

Tuesday, February 10, 2015


I sit here trying to think of the perfect words to begin a post entitled "imperfection". Somehow it is the beginning that is always the hardest.
You know the real reason that my blog posts have been infrequent is not always because of lack of time. It is because of my desire for perfection.

I don't like to make mistakes. You could say that I have a fear of failing.
I will hold myself back, not say things when I want to and not be who I really am in front of people because I am scared of messing up.
I sometimes actually write out whole blog posts and then delete them because I am afraid of what people will think of me now that I was honest, or now that I showed them who I really am.

Our pastor preached a message the other Sunday about mistakes and how God isn't baffled by them. God uses our mistakes for His purpose and glory.
Yesterday I went to a young ladies bible study where we learned about how God wants to use our story... even all of our mistakes for His glory.

It is starting to sink in.
If I live my life with the purpose of avoiding failure, I am going to be inadvertently avoiding the purpose that God has for my life. Sure, maybe I won't make as many mistakes, but I am also going to miss out on all the things that I could have accomplished for God.
If I don't try, and just hide in my own "safe" world, then God won't be able to use me. It is an action that always precedes a result.

This has been a lesson that I have struggled to learn for a very long time, and though I have gotten better at it, I am starting to see that I have not come as far as I can. This life is a continuing journey, and I need to continue on that journey.

So, maybe there will be more posts on here that are not so perfect (or... what I deem to be perfect anyway :), maybe there will even be some that make no sense at all. But what I am going to be doing is doing, instead of waiting for the perfect moment, or the perfect words.

There. You have been forewarned :)

Friday, February 6, 2015

Dream List #18

Dream list number eighteen. To go for thirty days without eating anything unhealthy.

I have been attempting to reach this goal for a very long time. But whenever I tried, I would give in to the temptations that would present themselves, and find myself back at the starting line. Pretty soon, I just gave up trying.

This January fifth our church began a weight loss competition. For the past four weeks; and continuing on for eight more, we have committed ourselves to be accountable to one another with weekly weigh-ins, all striving for the goal of becoming healthier and of course, to be the "Biggest Loser".
Being in the group has been life changing. It is not just my (insane) competitive drive that has caused me to find success. The encouragement and love that I have received from them has pushed me beyond my limits and helped me to see myself as more then I thought I was.

Three days ago was day thirty of this journey. And that marked the day that I was able to complete that illusive number on my dream list!
Though it has been a challenging month, the rewards have been so worth it!

I have felt so much more energetic, and have been happy to experience life free of the side affects of sugar and other unhealthy food choices.
This journey has forced me to really consider what I want the end goal to be. Not only do I strive to become more fit and healthy and to reach a goal weight, but I also work to change the inside. To get to the heart of all my issues. To be able to turn to God instead of to an unhealthy food choice to fill the empty spaces in my heart.
I don't just want temporary outside changes to take me to the end of a competition (maybe win!?! :) and then fall right back to where I was, and let all the hard work I put in go to waste. I want to make a forever change.

For me, this is not anymore all about a number on the scale.  Rather it is about reaching those personal goals and being the best version of me. The me that God has created me to be.
Sure, I still want to win the grand prize, but it is more then just a prize that I am working so hard for. It is the satisfaction of the overcoming of certain things that I have struggled with in the past.

This is not the end. This is just the beginning.
But it is the claiming of this one victory that will propel me further on my journey.
Thirty days completed. A lifetime of days to go.

Friday, January 16, 2015

Come home

Finally. The day you come home!
The house was a buzz all day, the kids were extra energetic; fuelled by the excitement of your impending return. :)

Jesse got to open his gift this, the last day. I felt kind of sorry for him, that he had to be last, but I guess it had to be somebody! 

We did Brooke's chosen activity, carried over from yesterday. More painting pictures!

Jesse chose to play hockey. He and the boys did so right after supper.
The rest of us spent our afternoon/evening cleaning and catching some final laze time.

Then, you came home.
Oh, happy day! :)

We had fun while you were gone, but we are so glad that you have come home!!

Thursday, January 15, 2015

A few

A few days gone by, few pictures taken.
Days eight, nine and ten were filled with spending time with the people that we love most.

Monday the boys went to work in the morning. At home we did some school, some working out and some relaxing. The guys had floor hockey in the evening, so Becka came over and we had a girl party :) (we love her!!!)
The only pictures I took of this day were of Kerri opening her gift...

Tuesday. Once again, the boys worked in the morning. We got some school done. Megan came over with Silas for lunch (YAY!!). 
We made us some chicken fajitas, talked some sister talk, and did some nephew cuddling. Becka came over to help us. :)
We love this girl!! <3

I opened my gift in the evening. What can I say? You know me! :)
The boys played hockey in the evening with Josh and the Penner boys. Ker and I decided to stay in the warm house :)

Excuse the mirror smudge... please.

Wednesday we did a bit of school before doing some mad cleaning. Washing floors, scrubbing toilets and the like. :)
Tony, Joanna and their kids came over to spend the afternoon/early evening with us. The guys had an airsoft gun war and rode on the snowmobile while us girls did what we do best (can you guess?? :).
We had a blast!!
The kiddoes were finally able to go outside and play, because it was FINALLY not the kind of weather in which your exposed skin freezes in five minutes!!! They were happy this day :)

Brooke got to open her gift in the evening. We decided to wait until the next day for her to pick an activity as we didn't have much time in the evening to do it before bedtime. 

Everyone was super excited that we only had ONE more sleep until you come home!!! We had so much fun... but we are pumped to all be together again!!

Monday, January 12, 2015

On the Seventh Day

We did it! We survived a whole week!! :)
We went to church this morning. Pastor T read the story of Samuel and Eli (1 Samuel 3); Elijah kept on saying "Did he said I laid down? Did he said "he ran to Eli"... to me?". He was so excited that Pastor Tony was talking about him :). 

Afterwards went to Grandma and Grandpa Pauls' for some "Chicken Chef". We visited for a bit before heading homers.

Bob's name got picked, he liked his new shirt :)

He decided to play "Apples to Apples". 
We. Had. Fun. :)

The rest of the the day we rested. :)
We had another "Extreme Cold Warning" overnight/in the morning. I feel a slight longing for the long ocean walks in the sunshine that I hear you are enjoying. :) You sure picked a great time to escape the Canadian winter!
Love you, miss you!