Tuesday, May 14, 2019

Before You Were Born


Little peanut.
The realization of how immensely our lives are about to change is hitting your momma like an ocean wave hits the sand. I go about my day, the waters of realization flow back into the sea of a million thoughts, then it hits me again. 
Lord willing, in about four weeks, you will make your way into this world by the miracle of birth. Our lives will no longer be about two, but about three.
Plans will drift from being centered around dates and times to what you, our precious little one needs for the day.
Your daddy will finally be able to cuddle you. He looks forward to stealing mom's cuddle buddy. We will at last be able to put a face to all of your sweet little kicks; and then a name to your sweet little face.
You will be the fulfillment of my girlhood dreams, next to your daddy of course. I have long waited for these days. First God blessed me with a husband, the best one out there... and now He has blessed us with you.

There are still a lot of unknowns causing fear to threaten to crowd my mind. I fear losing you. I fear not being strong enough to go through the labour and deliver process. I fear not being fully prepared for all that motherhood will require. I have to make the choice every day to come before the God that is forming you in my womb, and place all of those fears into His hands. Because we know that His plans for you, and for us are perfect.

Precious little one. We live in a world where life isn't as treasured as it used to be, where some think that the decision of whether you get to take your first breath should be placed in hands other than God's. 
But I promise you that your daddy and I will love and care for you with all that we are, and that we will always recognize what an incredible gift that you are, and will be to us.

We can't wait to meet you. <3

Friday, April 26, 2019

Coffee Shop Talk

My hubs is on a coffee date with one of his friends, so I decided to have a coffee date with all of my blogging friends, because it has been a while! Apparently a coffee shop is a popular hangout on a Friday evening, this place is buzzing with friendly chatter, and heartfelt conversations.
This is happy hour for our little peanut as well. He/she is currently working on it's kickboxing skills inside my ever growing belly.



What a whirlwind couple of months it has been.
This winter seemed to last forever, as it likely did for every Manitobian out there. We had a rough calving season due to the extreme cold, large calves which caused more c-sections than normal, and a nasty virus that plagued our herd. But even though things didn't turn out the way we planned, God is good, and we know that His plan is perfect.
Needless to say, we are thankful that spring is here!
We are planning to put crop in this year. Though Ben has grown up farming land with his Dad, this will be the first year he has done any of his own... so it will be a new experience!



I haven't taken many pictures of really anything lately, other than phone pictures of course. :)
I'm enjoying this season with just Ben and I while our little munchkin is still safely squished inside my uterus. But I'm trying to get back into the habit of capturing memories.
I just passed the 33 week mark, which means only about 7 weeks to go! The Dr. changed my dates after my first ultrasound, making me a week later than I originally thought. I'm trying not to get my hopes up that the baby will come a week earlier than I first expected, but all expecting mommas out there know that isn't easy to do. Needless to say, I still feel like I have SO much to do before we are ready for our baby to make it's arrival. I just finished getting the baby room ready, and organizing clothes that had been borrowed/given to me. Now I'm working on stocking up on all the things our little bundle will need. I actually just did a bunch of shopping for soothers, baby soap, and things like that today. Makes it that much more real!
I'm also planning to get spring cleaning done, make some meals for the freezer for after baby comes, and put our little garden in. We shall see if I can manage all of that in 7 weeks. :)



The third trimester has hit me harder than I expected (apparently I'm not superwoman ;) with all the aches and pains that come with carrying a child, but we are grateful that the baby is healthy and that there have been no complications thus far.



We did end up finding out whether it was a boy or girl, but only told immediate family... or at least tried to. It has slipped out of few times. :)
I've loved being able to buy gender specific items, and decorate accordingly.
We also have a name picked out, but will not be 100% certain about it until we see his/her little face.

I realize that I am rambling on and on about the baby and pregnancy, but that is kinda my life right now.
I've been struggling with figuring out what direction my blog will take. I've been so used to writing about my journey as a single woman as well as the experiences of living in a large family. It is harder than I thought to make the adjustment of writing about the season that I am in now. I feel hesitant to write about marriage and the lessons I have learned because I am still so new at it. But there have been things that I have felt on my heart to share that will likely make it into a post soon.
Likely the focus of this blog will drift away from single-large family living and on to the things I am learning now that I have become a wife and soon to be mother.
I'm sure I will find my groove yet.

Anyway, it is becoming time to meeting up with Ben again and make our way home.
I'll be back soon. :)

Thursday, December 20, 2018

Life These Days

Hey all!
So it has been a while. This has been part due to the fact that we have been settling into a routine now that silage season is over and I get to see my husband more often (Yay!); and partly because we have been hiding a little secret that has pretty much consumed everything that I think and would write about. :)

As my last post indicated, we are expecting a little miracle the middle of June two thousand nineteen.  We are both beyond excited!

I am 14 weeks and 2 days along in the pregnancy today. Two weeks ago we were able to hear the heartbeat for the first time, and it made it finally feel real. I had been doing a lot of research about what was happening to my body and how our baby was growing. But it wasn't until I heard the galloping sound of his/her heartbeat that it all sunk in for me. I'm a momma, and Lord-willing, in 6 months we will get to meet our new son/daughter.

It's been crazy/amazing to watch the little bump grow! Our little munchkin is already the size of a lemon. <3


Morning sickness left last week, which I am very grateful for. I won't say I had it bad, because though I was nauseous most of the day, I never actually had to make a run for the toilet. (Which I can thank my mother for... she passed down the gift of a strong stomach to me.)
But it is nice to have energy for more than one or two hours in a day. Ben spoiled me, bringing me breakfast in bed, running errands, and making meals for me when I was down and out.

I had hoped to be able to get a midwife, but apparently there are a lot of June babies expected next year, so there wasn't room for me. It hadn't ever been a question to us that we wanted to be in the care of a midwife and deliver at home, so it was hard to let that go. But I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, and I have been blessed with an amazing NP in a local clinic that I can see until 28 weeks.

We haven't yet decided whether or not we want to find out the gender. We both would love the surprise, but since we have zero baby stuff, it would be nice to be able to stock up on girl or boy things... instead of having to get everything gender neutral.
We would love to hear any thoughts or advice from those who have or haven't found out the gender before your little ones were born.

Ya, so that is the pregnancy update. :)

Calving season is rapidly approaching. Ben's Dad and brother bought a few cows that are due in December, and so we have had about 5 or 6 born already.
We also expanded our herd this year, so together with Ben's dad and brother... we will be calving out almost 200 cows.
Needless to say, with over 300 cows/calves/bulls on the yard, there is always something to do! If it is not getting calving barns and pens ready, then it is fixing fence or machinery. Feeding, bedding, sorting, and treating cows also takes up a good chunk of my hubby's day. And of course, once the calves come along, there seems to always be a calf being born, or needing help with finding his mama's milk. A farmer's work is never done!

I've also been tutoring Ben's youngest brother on school day mornings. Once a teacher, always a teacher. :)

So ya. That is life these days.

Saturday, September 15, 2018

The Reception + After Party - {Wedding Series Part 7}

Hey! It's been a while. :)
The silage crew has kept us hopping this past week, they have been working closer to home for the past while, so I've been able to spend more time riding along with my husband, which has been great!!

Now, the final wedding post.

Here are a few reception decoration details...

We had our guests sign a canvas picture instead of a signing book.


I had a lot of fun painting this sign. :)




The head table


The pie bar!
All that is missing from this picture is the wedding cake.



This one was my favourite to make. <3




Ben's Dad helped him make the easels.


And.... the cake. Wow, the cake.
Becs did an amazing job!!!


Our wedding vehicle.
Ben's parents' Mercury. 



  
Zach was our Emcee. He did an AMAZING job, especially considering it was his first time! He kept everyone smiling and laughing, even as it started to rain. We all had just enough time to eat the wedding barbecue feast before we all made our way to the tent to cut the cake, and escape the raindrops.





I think this is the moment where I was deciding whether I should keep the promise we made to be nice to each other while feeding the cake. We had planned to take pictures afterwards, so we both agreed not to make a mess. Being the people that we are, if we decided to be nasty, it would have turned into a full on food fight... so we promised to keep it tidy.


Just a little nervous I was about to get a face full of cake. :)





Though it was a bit of a bummer that it rained during our reception. It was both mine and Ben's wish for our wedding to be small and intimate. Having everyone all crowded in the tent added to that feeling, and made the sharing portion of the reception that much better. I loved the atmosphere.





Best Man Speech 


Maid of Honour Speech



Open mic













Ok, I've been waiting to do this for a while. Below is a picture of us with one of the most amazing couples out there. Our friends Caleb and Rebekah Prytherch from Tennessee. 
Not only did the travel over 2000 km to attend our wedding. But they also tirelessly helped out, not only with setting up, but also directing the caterers and helping with food the day of the wedding. Without them, we would have been scrambling to get everything done before the moment that we walked down the isle. So, we want to extend a HUGE thank you to these two amazing people. We love you both so much!!







My heart. <3





Kissy pictures. :)


















After the reception was over, and the pictures were done. We changed and enjoyed some volleyball and a campfire with our favourite people.





Ben surprised us all with some fireworks to end off the perfect day.


And... we were off!




We are truly surrounded by the most amazing group of family and friends. <3



And, that is the wedding!! Hope you enjoyed this peek into my favourite day. :)