Friday, May 29, 2015

Playing Catch-Up

I am sitting on the deck as I compile this post. The sounds of children playing, birds singing and frogs beginning their evening chorus interrupt the early evening stillness. The air smells of rain with a hint of apple blossom fragrence. It is a perfect setting to reflect on days gone by and catch you all up on the goings on of my life.

End of February. Still winter. As I already mentioned, Kerri's best friend came out to visit us from Tennessee. We hadn't seen each other in over a year, so we had so much to catch up on. We had the best time!

In March spring began showing up on the farm. And for me, my busiest season, lasting through the months of March, April and some of May. Calving went great this year! The weather was about perfect for the little calves, and there were no birthing complications or sicknesses. Pretty soon they will all be happily romping in the pastures.

On April fifteenth we welcomed my baby brother Michael Gideon into this world. After three years with no new babies in the house, it has been a joy to have a little one to love on again!
Mikey is such a little stinker, and has completely stolen my heart. :)
He has so many faces that he makes already and we can tell that he is going to be a very energetic little boy!

Michael the day he was born...

Michael at six weeks...

A couple of months before Michael was born we had a little gender reveal party along with the birthday party that we had for Josiah. We were not telling anyone (besides our immediate family) the gender until after he was born, so I wasn't able to share these pictures until now. Joey was quite excited that he was getting a new baby brother!

The secret is in the cake!

I didn't get any pictures of the guys out seeding the fields this year, but they finished a couple of weeks ago. Now they are on to spraying, which makes it a little bit less busy for us errand runners. 
It is supposed to freeze tonight, so we are all praying hard that our crops will be protected!

There now, all caught up. :)
But I am not about to drop off the face of the earth again.
On Monday I am starting a blogging challenge with two of my sista's. 
Stay tuned! ;)

Monday, May 25, 2015

Breaking the Silence

So it has been a while. 
It seems kind of ironic, hypocritical even,  that I took such a long blogging break right after I wrote a post practically promising more posts. The truth be known, for a couple of weeks after my cyber disappearance, I had the legitimate excuse of being busy. We planned and put on an event for our church and then we had a friend out from Tennessee. 
But after that, I began what would be a struggle of the inward, spiritual kind. God began chasing me and asking me to surrender things that I held so tightly. 
The running away took it's toll. The words were stolen out of my heart. I barely wrote at all (thus, no blogging), my journal scarcely saw my pen, and I retreated to a place where I could shut off the flow of feeling. A hiding place.
I resided in this place for a long time, because there my soul wasn't bothered. I intentionally became blissfully unaware of the Love that was calling me to action.
I had constructed a wall of noise to block out the still small voice of God asking me to hear Him again, no matter what the cost. To feel His heartbeat, to be his voice. To take up my cross every day and follow hard after Him.
Have you ever been in that place? 
You know that God is asking you to do something, but instead of being obedient, you find yourself unwilling, and begin a wildly unfruitful journey that only leads right back to where you came from?
This journey had me see God in a new way. He is relentless. He loves me to much to allow me to be comfortable with where I am. Even when I feel like he must have given up on me, when I peek through the cracks, I find him and His mercy waiting with open arms. 

So now I am working on tearing down that wall, one day at a time. Today another piece will fall down as I click the publish button, and get back to regular posting.

My next post I will catch you up on what has been going on these past couple of months. 
And I dare to promise... it will be soon! :)

I will leave you with a sneak peek...

Wednesday, February 11, 2015

This Girl

To be able to know this girl is a privilege.
To be able to love this girl is a blessing.
To be able to call this girl my best friend is a treasure.

Words could not express how amazing and precious this girl is.

She is one of the strongest women that I have ever met. 
Her faith, unshakable.
Her heart is big, and I love to watch her as she shares her love, 
and the love of Christ to all those around her.

We do everything together, share everything with each other 

(I don't know what I would do without my KerBear!).
I am BEYOND blessed to be able to call her my little sister.

Today is her birthday!!
Happy, happy.... HAPPY birthday Kerker!!!
I love you!!

Tuesday, February 10, 2015


I sit here trying to think of the perfect words to begin a post entitled "imperfection". Somehow it is the beginning that is always the hardest.
You know the real reason that my blog posts have been infrequent is not always because of lack of time. It is because of my desire for perfection.

I don't like to make mistakes. You could say that I have a fear of failing.
I will hold myself back, not say things when I want to and not be who I really am in front of people because I am scared of messing up.
I sometimes actually write out whole blog posts and then delete them because I am afraid of what people will think of me now that I was honest, or now that I showed them who I really am.

Our pastor preached a message the other Sunday about mistakes and how God isn't baffled by them. God uses our mistakes for His purpose and glory.
Yesterday I went to a young ladies bible study where we learned about how God wants to use our story... even all of our mistakes for His glory.

It is starting to sink in.
If I live my life with the purpose of avoiding failure, I am going to be inadvertently avoiding the purpose that God has for my life. Sure, maybe I won't make as many mistakes, but I am also going to miss out on all the things that I could have accomplished for God.
If I don't try, and just hide in my own "safe" world, then God won't be able to use me. It is an action that always precedes a result.

This has been a lesson that I have struggled to learn for a very long time, and though I have gotten better at it, I am starting to see that I have not come as far as I can. This life is a continuing journey, and I need to continue on that journey.

So, maybe there will be more posts on here that are not so perfect (or... what I deem to be perfect anyway :), maybe there will even be some that make no sense at all. But what I am going to be doing is doing, instead of waiting for the perfect moment, or the perfect words.

There. You have been forewarned :)

Friday, February 6, 2015

Dream List #18

Dream list number eighteen. To go for thirty days without eating anything unhealthy.

I have been attempting to reach this goal for a very long time. But whenever I tried, I would give in to the temptations that would present themselves, and find myself back at the starting line. Pretty soon, I just gave up trying.

This January fifth our church began a weight loss competition. For the past four weeks; and continuing on for eight more, we have committed ourselves to be accountable to one another with weekly weigh-ins, all striving for the goal of becoming healthier and of course, to be the "Biggest Loser".
Being in the group has been life changing. It is not just my (insane) competitive drive that has caused me to find success. The encouragement and love that I have received from them has pushed me beyond my limits and helped me to see myself as more then I thought I was.

Three days ago was day thirty of this journey. And that marked the day that I was able to complete that illusive number on my dream list!
Though it has been a challenging month, the rewards have been so worth it!

I have felt so much more energetic, and have been happy to experience life free of the side affects of sugar and other unhealthy food choices.
This journey has forced me to really consider what I want the end goal to be. Not only do I strive to become more fit and healthy and to reach a goal weight, but I also work to change the inside. To get to the heart of all my issues. To be able to turn to God instead of to an unhealthy food choice to fill the empty spaces in my heart.
I don't just want temporary outside changes to take me to the end of a competition (maybe win!?! :) and then fall right back to where I was, and let all the hard work I put in go to waste. I want to make a forever change.

For me, this is not anymore all about a number on the scale.  Rather it is about reaching those personal goals and being the best version of me. The me that God has created me to be.
Sure, I still want to win the grand prize, but it is more then just a prize that I am working so hard for. It is the satisfaction of the overcoming of certain things that I have struggled with in the past.

This is not the end. This is just the beginning.
But it is the claiming of this one victory that will propel me further on my journey.
Thirty days completed. A lifetime of days to go.

Friday, January 16, 2015

Come home

Finally. The day you come home!
The house was a buzz all day, the kids were extra energetic; fuelled by the excitement of your impending return. :)

Jesse got to open his gift this, the last day. I felt kind of sorry for him, that he had to be last, but I guess it had to be somebody! 

We did Brooke's chosen activity, carried over from yesterday. More painting pictures!

Jesse chose to play hockey. He and the boys did so right after supper.
The rest of us spent our afternoon/evening cleaning and catching some final laze time.

Then, you came home.
Oh, happy day! :)

We had fun while you were gone, but we are so glad that you have come home!!

Thursday, January 15, 2015

A few

A few days gone by, few pictures taken.
Days eight, nine and ten were filled with spending time with the people that we love most.

Monday the boys went to work in the morning. At home we did some school, some working out and some relaxing. The guys had floor hockey in the evening, so Becka came over and we had a girl party :) (we love her!!!)
The only pictures I took of this day were of Kerri opening her gift...

Tuesday. Once again, the boys worked in the morning. We got some school done. Megan came over with Silas for lunch (YAY!!). 
We made us some chicken fajitas, talked some sister talk, and did some nephew cuddling. Becka came over to help us. :)
We love this girl!! <3

I opened my gift in the evening. What can I say? You know me! :)
The boys played hockey in the evening with Josh and the Penner boys. Ker and I decided to stay in the warm house :)

Excuse the mirror smudge... please.

Wednesday we did a bit of school before doing some mad cleaning. Washing floors, scrubbing toilets and the like. :)
Tony, Joanna and their kids came over to spend the afternoon/early evening with us. The guys had an airsoft gun war and rode on the snowmobile while us girls did what we do best (can you guess?? :).
We had a blast!!
The kiddoes were finally able to go outside and play, because it was FINALLY not the kind of weather in which your exposed skin freezes in five minutes!!! They were happy this day :)

Brooke got to open her gift in the evening. We decided to wait until the next day for her to pick an activity as we didn't have much time in the evening to do it before bedtime. 

Everyone was super excited that we only had ONE more sleep until you come home!!! We had so much fun... but we are pumped to all be together again!!