Friday, October 1, 2010

Do Dreams Come True?

Every girl has a dream.
For each girl that dream will be different depending on the her background, what her families beliefs are and what her personality is.

But I think that the most popular dream would be to one day get married (to an amazing guy), have a family and live happily ever after.
Some girls may go into more deeper detail with their dreams (like what he will/must look like, how many kids your gonna have,... ect).
Some girls really don't care about the details.
But every girl has a dream for their future.

When I was little I used to dream of being a zoo keeper, a christian bandleader, a hairdresser or a veterinarian.
And always there... was the dream of having a family.

Some of those dreams were unrealistic and just fun to think about (I wouldn't really care to be a zoo keeper anymore :), some have come true to some degree (I'm the "hairdresser" of the family and we kinda have a "family band" and I usually take care of our animals if they are sick) and the dream of having my own family has become a part of me.

When I became more "of age" these dreams become so vivid and alive that it is was almost painful sometimes.
I dreamt of how our courtship will be, what my wedding will be like, how amazing it will be to have and raise a child/children of my own someday, and how awesome it would be to do missions with my family.

Then I started thinking. Am I letting my dreams become so important to me that they are taking over what God might have planned for my life?
Is God giving me these desires? Or am I just making them up?

I tried several times to give my dreams to the Lord and let Him be the author of my future, but it was all kind of just half hearted. Something I did to try to make myself "ok" with God.

I still thought ALOT about my dreams for my future.

Then God spoke to me one day and said "you haven't really given your future to me".
I knew in my heart that I hadn't, but this was something that was SO hard for me to let go.
What if God didn't want me to get married?
What if it wasn't in His plan for me to have children and become a missionary?
I couldn't even stand the thought, let alone give it all up to possibly being an "old maid" or never being able to have children.

Then as I was reading the bible this scripture verse popped out at me:

Ephesians 1:4-5
4 According as he hath chosen us in him before the foundation of the
world, that we should be holy and without blame before him in love: 
 5Having predestinated us unto the adoption of children by Jesus Christ to himself, according to the good pleasure of his will,
God has chosen us to be His children. He has chosen me.
It wasn't OUR choice to let God have us, it was HIS choice for us to be His, right from the beginning.
If He chose us to be His children and He had "good pleasure" in choosing us... wouldn't He have our BEST interest in mind?
If God chose me to be His child, that means that He has a plan for my life, a perfect plan. 

And then there is this verse....

 1 Corinthians 2:9 
9But as it is written, Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him.

I felt like crying when I first read this verse, isn't it beautiful?
It's the verse that made me be able to give up my hopes and dreams and entrust my future into God's hands.
He has a BIG plan, and I want MY plan to be what GOD has already planned.
I don't want my desires to get in the way, no matter how much I want them.

My focus changed. Sure I still do think about my future, and where I would like my life to go, but it is with a different mindset now.
I'm okay with letting it all go.
I've given the Lord my hopes and my dreams, what He choses to do with them is not up to me.
I'm not holding on to anything.

My dreams have become what God wants for my life.

Do dreams come true?
Maybe, but I think that the most important question to ask is...

Who holds my dreams?

❀ Jennifer


Anonymous said...

Great post Jenny!!
It really is wonderful to know that God is holding us in His hand He will never let go of us,and we don't need to worry about the future.

Love ya lots girl!

Mrs. Pauls said...

One of my favorite Psalms is Psalm 20. I always find it encouraging and maybe it will be an encouragement to you too.

"May the LORD answer you when you are in distress; may the name of the God of Jacob protect you.

May he send you help from the sanctuary and grant you support from Zion.

May he remember all your sacrifices and accept your burnt offerings.

May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed. "


Jenny's writings said...

Mrs. Pauls
Thanks for your comment and for sharing those verses!
It was very encouraging.

Anonymous said...

Hey Jenny Sis,

I am so thankful God laid this on your heart to write. I really enjoyed reading it! Its amazing how the more we seek him the more our heart changes to what he wants and thats when we are truly satisfied. When we are in the middle of his good and perfect will for our lives.

Love ya girl, Lizzy